Sunday, November 30, 2008

This week I have been reading...

Dear Fatty by Dawn French

I am loving this one, it reminds me a lot of the Lucy family alphabet and I was actually thinking it could be a good book club topic to compare the two. A different way to construct a memoir, this time using letters to significant people in her life. Both women obviously are using comedy to cover a lot of pain in their lives. There is only a couple of annoying bits, but all in all, its a very honest and enjoyable book.


Also...

I recently read Further adventures of a London Call girl by Belle De Jour. Crap, Bollocks, Poo. Complete false advertising!! She's not even a goddamn call girl anymore, what a waste of my time! I am not really interested in reading about her sitting on some foreign beach while her boyfriend is shagging around on her back home!! Dump him and get back to the business woman! (If you really are a woman that is... see previous post on this topic!)


And...

Life with my sister Madonna by Christopher Ciccone. Not quite the trashy read I was after, I thought it was going to be full of bitchy gossip and tell all expose, instead it was kind of sad. Chris obviously loves his sister but her personality is just so strong that even as they grow apart and he apparently wants to come out of her shadow, he goes and writes a book about her! Strange! Entertaining though, just dont expect this book to change the world!

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

The Wig

Over the past few weeks I have had discussions with three people at work regarding a certain costume shop and a lovely lady who works there. She has a real name, but I know her as 'The Wig'. She is the loveliest of ladies and I just wanted to post these photo's of her wedding last year to prove how fabulous she is (and why she has that nickname!).


Monday, November 24, 2008

Play Week

I have been playing!


Cupcakes

I've had a few requests for the recipe for fridays super-dooper cupcakes so here are the links;

http://www.kitchenlink.com/cookbooks/2005/0743246616_2.html

http://www.kitchenlink.com/cookbooks/2005/0743246616_4.html

The recipe comes from the Magnolia bakery in New York. I know about the bakery because when I was there in 2005 i went on the 'Sex and the city tour'. Yeah Yeah I know! Hey i went on the Sound of music tour in Austria too!!!!


Sunday, November 23, 2008

Famous...

I just read the latest Cruzin and if you check out page 8 (or was it page 6? anyways, wherever the editors message was) well there we are!!! I am going to send some photo's in to the mag and a little birdie told me that the next Rods Ramblings might also be singing the HotRodLibrarian's praises!!!

Friday, November 21, 2008

Thank you

Just wanted to say thanks for the lovely words, flowers, food, phone calls, messages. Just everything.
Everyone says, including me, that they don't know what to do or say, and it's true, there is not much anyone can say, I guess that's why I felt the need to put it out there, as good as talking about it is, repeating it over and over is hard. I don't know if I would call it brave to write it all down, but I've always been pretty open with things, and it may sound silly but hopefully it might help others who find it difficult to open up.
I am thinking about going in to work tomorrow for a bit of a social visit but I'm really quite nervous about it. I know that emotional flood is going to hit, not looking forward to that, but I need to get back out into the real world sometime, trouble is the real world is looking a little daunting right now.
So I might see some of you tomorrow, or I might chicken out. And if I do see you tomorrow I might cry... well you'll just have to live with that!
Mind you, if I do come in I will be armed with cupcakes!!

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

:-(

I feel I should write something, it will probably do me good and be cathartic and all that stuff.

So here goes;

I had an appointment on Thursday with my obstetrician, just routine. All seemed fine, I asked when we do that thing where we listen to the heartbeat, he said probably next month and have I been feeling movement every day, I said No not everyday. he put me up on the bed to have a listen, couldn't find anything, took me down to the childbirth centre to try the bigger monitor, still couldn't find anything, got me in for an ultrasound, when the operator said "I'm just going to get my supervisor coz I'm new and just learning." that's when I knew something was wrong.

No Heartbeat.

I was in shock, the doctor was even more shocked, you see I'd had an inkling something was wrong, but of course I pushed it to the back of my mind. I had said to my partner last week that I wasn't feeling much movement and he said not to worry and everything was fine etc. Ive also been completely paranoid about this whole pregnancy, but again, just tried not to think about that. I figured it was because this one was planned and Anouk wasn't.

I was checked into hospital that night, given tablets to induce labour and just had to wait. I was lucky to have a double room so my partner could stay with me the whole time.

It was tough, childbirth is tough, but knowing the outcome in this situation, kind of almost unbearable. Bring on the drugs I say, I could have anything I wanted!

I chose to see the baby afterwards, My partner didn't want to and I respect that. it was hard but I think it will help, they also gave me some photo's which really don't do him justice, and some hand and foot prints which are just precious.

The doctor, and me want a full post mortem done to try to find out what went wrong, but from seeing him it looks like he got his cord twisted up, that simple, just got a bit overactive one day and cut off his blood supply.


I am home now and attempting to move on, Everything has changed now. Some parts of my life seem clearer and some not. I am riding from one crazy emotion to the next, and have the physical stuff to deal with too. In fact I think that has been the hardest so far, I'm still waiting for the emotional stuff to really kick in, I mean, if you told me this, the whole pregnancy etc. was a dream, I would believe you.

Signing off now, There is more to say, but it has helped writing this down (over a couple of days mind you!) I know its going to be a hard road ahead, but I am taking care of myself and my partner and I are taking care of each other. He's been really good to me and I feel awful that I have been such a bitch to him lately. I hope this will bring us closer together. Anouk has been the best to have around. I don't think she has a lot of idea whats going/gone on. I am just so glad that this has happened on my second pregnancy. besides, you have to get out of bed when a toddler is relying on you.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Hot Rods and Libraries?

Well looky there, I pulled it off!
What started as a tongue in cheek comment, teaches me I should keep my mouth shut really!!!
My Hot Rod Event was a success, 60 people came, 10+ Rods in the Senior Cits carpark (no reflection on those that drive Hot Rods intended!), and I loved the fact that one of the first comments received was from a guy who had first discovered his love of cars in the Altona library!!!

Now for the shameless self promotion!!

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Last week I read...

I have got a bit slack on keeping up with my book posts... maybe it's a sign that I am reading too much, no it's a sign that I am wasting too much time on boring stuff like living and not enough time publishing posts on my blog!

The F word: how we learned to swear by feminism by Jane Caro and Catherine Fox. It was OK, nothing revolutionary or new, but if it gets one new Chicky babe reading about feminism than it has done it's job!

It's a mostly personal account of two women who have successfully juggled careers and families while trying to stay true to their feminist principle, something which is really hard I have to admit. I can't believe how the stereotypical gender roles play out once the little bundle of joy comes along! Jane and Catherine are very open with the fact that they are living middle class lives in a privileged time for women. The groundwork has been layed by the two previous waves of feminism, and women have got to keep this momentum flowing, creating a world, not just of equality, but of balance and choices too. There is also much discussion of the whole raunch culture thing that is going on at the moment, something I am divided on, one one side, I like that women are taking over control of highly sexualised images, and I have always wanted to take pole dancing classes. But I also hate the sexualisation of the tween set and think people like Paris Hilton are just completely useless, I mean what has she actually done? anyways, that's a discussion for later.

I also started Halloween: from Pagan festival to party night but decided to abandon that one half way through the first chapter, something I hardly ever do but it was too cold and academic and given the fact that I have 10 other books sitting beside my bed waiting to be read, thought it wasn't worth it!

I just started Why we buy: the science of shopping which i am finding very interesting coming from a retail background and having had much discussion of this type of environment around the library recently.

I have also been put onto the show LAink which I am loving... I want Kat Von D to do my next tattoo!

H is for Hormones...

Hormones... Those fabulous unseen but much felt things that make the world go round, and round, and round, and....
Pregnancy hormones are the worst, just ask my partner!
I blame the fact that I am having a boy and have all this testosterone going around in my system. Of course this doesn't make me any better at stereotypically boy activities... my latest hissy fit involved a lawnmower that I couldn't start!
Just about anything can set me off at the moment, random crying at doggies on the telly, sobbing during the Sex and the City movie, and I watched Juno the other day and you should have seen me in the birth scene... not to mention the now infamous plate throwing incident... pretty tame actually when you consider I only threw it in the sink and not at the boy's head!

Saturday, November 1, 2008

Librarything

I have been playing with Librarything, It's pissing me off!

I like Shelfari better, it's easier to use.

I tried to do my top 5 books to co-inside with this weeks happenings at work.

It didn't work how I wanted it to,

I am giving up on it now.