New New Beginnings... Again

Tomorrow I start a new job that feels oh so right, unlike where I have been working lately which has felt oh so wrong. I learned a long time ago to listen to my gut instinct and this rule has served me well so far... let’s hope it continues.

I think in the process I may have upset a very powerful person. A person I have only met once and who scared the shit out of me! Now I am not easily intimidated so this tells you something!!

But this is someone who has known of my existence for at least 18 months and so far has given me so little time of day yet and is now upset about me leaving after only a few weeks (even though she could offer me no more than a few hours a week) And now others, who have only known of my existence for a few weeks, are prepared to offer me so much more. Feels good and not a hard choice I can tell you!

And a nice little stick it up ya as well!

Full Circle...

So it seems life may have come full circle.

Oh yeah and sorry about the absence, I've been busy trying to get my hormones to behave, sleep and getting myself stressed out about unimportant things such as family, home and work... You know how it is!

Anyways, where was I? Oh Yeah, the circle...

So I went to uni first time round, and I've written about this before, mostly out of fear and expectation. It was the early to mid nineties, the recession we had to have, the "If you don't go to uni you'll never get a job"/"if you take some time off between uni you'll never go back" era. I went to the uni I went to because I got in there in a last minute scramble for student numbers and I stayed because I was there and I always felt like I was missing out on something or that somehow I just wasn't sure why I was where I was. Anyways, I'm rambling...

It was a country uni close to where I grew up and basically I really just wanted to get to the city.

But yesterday I was offered a job at the library of said country/first uni. And I'm pretty goddamn excited about it for many reasons.

The 1st being that some of my life "choices" are starting to make sense to me.

The 2nd because I can tell another workplace to shove it, well sort of, I want to stay on good terms but given that I'd been trying to get in there for about 2 years and all they are prepared to offer me is band 3 casual and well, um, stick it up ya!

3rd, this is yet another fated kind of "perfect timing" situation that I have found myself in many times in my life. sorry to get all spiritual and airy fairy on you, but this is not the first time that my forthright nature, as well as said good timing have got me somewhere!

I'm not sure how its going to go, I've never worked in an academic library and I might hate it, they might not want to keep me on, but right now it feels like things are falling into place and my life is actually starting to make sense to me... its only taken 36 years!