This last 6 months has been ridiculous in my life, I naively took on a job that, although not beyond my capabilities, was definatly way more stress than my life needs. I haven't had this many sleepless nights since the bookshop that shall not be named days. But then again at least I'm being paid a decent wage to handle the stress this time.
The temp role finished in 2.5 weeks (and counting), and look, it has been a very useful experience and I've learned a lot. Most significantly that;
a) although I can work at this level, I don't want to work at this level. and;
b) I'm too nice for this job! which has increased the stress levels big time by my not being able to just say "you're out of line" or "that's just not good enough" or "just get your shit together honey!"
I had bigger plans for my time in this role, and I thought I would be able to prove to myself that I was a stronger person than people saw me as, and that I wouldn't let people walk all over me. But then hey, If your dealing with a staff of over 80 and it's only 4 who are driving you crazy then maybe that's a pretty good ratio!
I still feel a little disappointed that It wasn't the experience i'd hoped for, but I'm sure I will be able to look back and say how great it was once I am able to step away from it all. I do like having my own office though!
So anyways, 2.5 weeks and I get to feel like me again. There will be some big changes afoot. and maybe a little bit of getting back to whats important in my life (like actually getting around to writing on my daggy old out of date blog!)
2 comments:
sure you're a nice person and all but trust me you're not perceived as someone who can be walked all over, on the contrary. those "4" are probably just walkeroverers and they probably do it to everybody.
blogging is not dead! it's just resting its eyes. xxMM.
Hi my friend, the last few days and counting eeeh? I'm so proud of you that you took the job and stuck with it!!! You can do this work, of course but wanting to do it is a second; there's so much more going on in your life that a job like this is not something you need. Nice if you don't have kids or a life of some sort but otherwise it's bloody hard work. And usually the job is not that good to sacrifice all the good things in life. But at least you got paid a decent wage for all this....!! Hope the move will go well for you and you'll find that you feel much better when you're back home! love, wen xxxxxxx
ps. don't think blogging is dead, but sometimes real life gets in the way
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